Struggle

27"But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, 28bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. 29If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. If someone takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking your tunic. 30Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. 31Do to others as you would have them do to you.
32"If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' love those who love them. 33And if you do good to those who are good to you, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' do that. 34And if you lend to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' lend to 'sinners,' expecting to be repaid in full. 35But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. 36Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful.
37"Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. 38Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."
39He also told them this parable: "Can a blind man lead a blind man? Will they not both fall into a pit? 40A student is not above his teacher, but everyone who is fully trained will be like his teacher.
41"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 42How can you say to your brother, 'Brother, let me take the speck out of your eye,' when you yourself fail to see the plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.
43"No good tree bears bad fruit, nor does a bad tree bear good fruit. 44Each tree is recognized by its own fruit. People do not pick figs from thornbushes, or grapes from briers. 45The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks.
46"Why do you call me, 'Lord, Lord,' and do not do what I say? 47I will show you what he is like who comes to me and hears my words and puts them into practice. 48He is like a man building a house, who dug down deep and laid the foundation on rock. When a flood came, the torrent struck that house but could not shake it, because it was well built. 49But the one who hears my words and does not put them into practice is like a man who built a house on the ground without a foundation. The moment the torrent struck that house, it collapsed and its destruction was complete." -- Luke 6:27-49

How do you struggle and where does your struggle lie with folks that you run into? Personally I struggled with a couple of men who infiltrated my campus on Monday and Tuesday... I still feel violated, my religion was violated, my god was violated, my friends were violated, my fellow students were violated, my heart, mind, and soul violated, my overall being was violated by these two screaming men. Today I got in a small yelling match with one of them, I had heard them condemn people for 2 days, and I needed to voice something. I tried my hardest not to judge and I feel like I did not fully judge them but left it to God, but I know that part of me passed judgement. I was just so emotional over this violation, I told/asked one if he believed that we should leave judging people to God, he told me no, and then called me a hypocrite, because of what I was trying to say. I let him have his piece and then tried to vocalize another portion, but I wasn't allowed, because he was just screaming bashing anyone who had anything to say that differed from his opinion. I think the reason I was saddened the most wasn't the violation I felt, but the fact that as some people walked away I heard them say to their friends and to whoever was on the phone that there was a reason that didn't like christianity, because christians to them were just like that, screaming hell, fire, and brimstone kind of folks. I was glad that my friend put his arm around me, and stood up for me today, thank you Andrew. A woman spoke to me and said it'd be a lot easier if we all just walked on by, and I started talking to her, for less than a minute, and he started calling her a totalitarian Adolf Hitler, so to show my displeasure with him just a little more, and to see if I could ruffle his feathers, I looked at her asked her if I could have a hug, and hugged her...

The verses above just helped me today... Another thing that helped me was the positive reaction to a couple of other christian groups who were on campus, the Tuesday Afternoon question, the Campus Prayer Days table (1 and 2, which went amazingly well) and other random prayer circles like the one held in the free speech area which doubled in size before it was over... And Also calmed down the situation with the screaming men...

Pray for me please, pray that I find willingness to accept God's plan as to a girlfriend or whatever should happen there. Pray that a friendship started in ballroom continues, that my sleepless nights become sleepful, and that I find a place for the summer, well that Paul finds a place for me, but that I hear about it soon...